My husband sent me this link not too long ago that recorded the powerful words from parents who have lost a child (this was in lieu of the recent loss of John Travolta's son, Jett). The parents spoke of their their struggles with religion, the hardship of living life without their kids and the pain of moving forward. Click here to listen.
I have been thinking of posts to write but just cannot put emotions into words yet. The winter season is our 'hurricane season', the special holidays, Amelie's birthday and eventual, angel-day. Boy do I wish I didn't circle around days/dates. Goodness knows I miss Amelie everyday. But I do think of those days. I think of the days leading to her birthday and what a wonderful pregnancy I had with her. I remember being so curious of who I was carrying and getting anxious to meet him/her. Then there's her birth - the greatest moment of our lives followed by 15 days later, when our world collapsed and part of Paul and I died along with her.
Our experience is different from those parents on the recording, but our pain is all too similar. I want to celebrate Amelie's birth but its just not possible for us. On Jan. 29, 2009, Amelie would have turned 2. I just wish I shared experiences with people who's lives didn't end with tragedy. I wish I got to experience Amelie's 2nd birthday.